TLDR. Let’s face it; this circumstance is uneasy, and there’s no one in this world who knows exactly about the end of this uncertainty.
It has been almost 2 months since some of us was given the privilege of staying at home and practicing physical distancing. And nothing comes easy about it.
Couple days ago, I stumbled upon a beautifully written article by a dear friend; @clairineruntung. As she wrote: “We are all in a state of purgatory — a limbo state between living and dying. Don’t deny it, like what I did. Accept it”. Then I was like; That’s it. Maybe I’ve been holding the fact that I’m not really accepting this harsh situation.
There were those early days when I used to juggle between work at home, cooking, reorganizing our home, home-workout almost every day. ‘Ok, this is all about a habit changing and I’m enjoying it’, that was what I thought.
Now these days; I somehow feel easily tired — also maybe work from home has become a new normal, that we, people, tend to don’t have working hour boundaries anymore. My laptop turns on during 8am to 9pm - or more sometimes. Maybe having more than 7 concalls a day has been a new normal for us. Maybe that’s ok if some of us can’t managed to do cooking, workout, and those concalls, all at the same day. I hope that’s still ok, rather than the fact that we’re less motivated these days somehow.
On some days, my overthinking and rantings worsen (who doesn’t, many of us have big responsibility for our job, our family, our plans, and others that are also impacted by this situation), but on the other days I feel thankful for everything that I still have right now. That is all, I’m feeling stuck in a limbo.
Maybe we just have to start to let it out, to feel that; We’re all not ok, but since life still goes on — we just need to cope up with this new reality. But first, let’s start with the acceptance.