Keluar rumah pertama kalinya di jam kerja sejak Maret 2020, untuk..... mencari kursi kerja setelah on-off back pain 4 bulan 🙂

Life before pandemic, I used to go out at 5.45 AM for a F45 class — almost everyday. Jujur karena agak ada rasa gak mau rugi kalo skip kelas hahahaha. Fast forward to the stay-at-home season, it is truly challenging for me to keep myself motivated to exercise. Nggak berhenti total, tapi jadi nggak serutin biasanya. Mostly karena jadwal berantakan, akhirnya mau olahraga jadi banyak excuse. Sampai akhirnya @shashadisya cerita kalo ternyata manusia pada dasarnya butuh rutinitas biar “nggak gila”. Hahahah ternyata buatku ya bener jugasi. In the past 7 days, akhirnya kembali bisa commit 7 kali exercise — balik lagi jadi member F45 live. Buatku lumayan berasa lebih rapi kehidupan, pola tidur lebih teratur, suasana hati dan pikiran pun. Btw, you do you, mungkin nggak dengan olahraga, karena coping mechanism tiap orang berbeda-beda :) tapi mencoba cari rutinitas bisa jadi membantu di masa-masa ini.

I’m not a bookworm. Membaca dalam hidup gue ada siklusnya. SD dan SMP adalah masa-masa gue bisa stating “hobi: membaca”. Hehe. Sejak kuliah, frekuensi membaca buku gue menurun. Setahun paling cuma baca buku di bawah lima judul. Itu pun yang dibaca cuma buku baru dari penulis favorit yang keluar. Sisanya.. susah banget baca buku, nggak bisa fokus rasanya. Sempet ngobrolin case ini sama seorang psikolog, ternyata setelah digali, susah fokus pas baca buku ini karena... gue ngerasa ada hal prioritas lain yang harus dikerjakan selain baca buku, jadi pikiran gue ke mana-mana. Harusnya fokus sama kata-kata di dalam buku, eh malah kepikiran hal lainnya. Ada yang pernah ngerasa gitu ngga? Sampai akhirnya baca The Untethered Soul, dan... berasa kayak diomongin pas baca section awal-awal ini. Mental voice ini sih, yang sering bikin susah fokus pas gue baca, nonton, dll. Easier said than done, tapi mungkin harus kurang-kurangin overthinking ya kalau gitu berarti. PS: Kalo kalian follow @the.note.project, buku-buku yang gue catet di situ artinya udah lolos seleksi bertahan dibaca sambil overthinking hal-hal lain. That is why, gue put highlights di Kindle atau post it di buku, buat nandain yang penting-penting. Sebelum gone karena dibaca oleh aku yang sulit berfokus. Anyway, terima kasih bagi kamu-kamu yang sudah follow akun itu ya :)

So far this month.

Coping mechanism number 53525182 in the era of pandemic: soaking up the sun.

Highlights from what’s in my phone’s photo gallery.

Sometimes all the things we complained about are the ones we take for granted. #latepost

A series of mundane things around us at home, featuring that #keepingitreal shot from the frame number one.

Went out for running slash groceries shopping to a nearby supermarket has never been so liberating. It’s been a while. PS: As stated on the location tag, am I the only one who is surprised that LOVE stands for Lotte Shopping Avenue? 👆🏽

TLDR. Let’s face it; this circumstance is uneasy, and there’s no one in this world who knows exactly about the end of this uncertainty. It has been almost 2 months since some of us was given the privilege of staying at home and practicing physical distancing. And nothing comes easy about it. Couple days ago, I stumbled upon a beautifully written article by a dear friend; @clairineruntung. As she wrote: “We are all in a state of purgatory — a limbo state between living and dying. Don’t deny it, like what I did. Accept it”. Then I was like; That’s it. Maybe I’ve been holding the fact that I’m not really accepting this harsh situation. There were those early days when I used to juggle between work at home, cooking, reorganizing our home, home-workout almost every day. ‘Ok, this is all about a habit changing and I’m enjoying it’, that was what I thought. Now these days; I somehow feel easily tired — also maybe work from home has become a new normal, that we, people, tend to don’t have working hour boundaries anymore. My laptop turns on during 8am to 9pm - or more sometimes. Maybe having more than 7 concalls a day has been a new normal for us. Maybe that’s ok if some of us can’t managed to do cooking, workout, and those concalls, all at the same day. I hope that’s still ok, rather than the fact that we’re less motivated these days somehow. On some days, my overthinking and rantings worsen (who doesn’t, many of us have big responsibility for our job, our family, our plans, and others that are also impacted by this situation), but on the other days I feel thankful for everything that I still have right now. That is all, I’m feeling stuck in a limbo. Maybe we just have to start to let it out, to feel that; We’re all not ok, but since life still goes on — we just need to cope up with this new reality. But first, let’s start with the acceptance.

As we’re currently living in this moment of uncertainties, we need to believe that the brighter days will eventually come. . Let me post some of the pics from one of so many things that I’ve been missing (yet I used to take it for granted) — to walk outside. . So, now let’s share the bright light through hopes and action by supporting #LightUpIndonesia campaign by @ycabfoundation to support those in need during this pandemic — by taking over their electricity bills through www.lightup.id. . Spread this message by joining #LightUpIndonesia challenge, go post a dark picture followed by some photos that brings you happiness. Berani melawan gelap bersama #LightUpIndonesia. . Now I’m tagging @s.palupijati @yess_ade @nurjanekaputri and @reg to join this challenge!

Happy anniversary, @muhamadandi7! Dokumentasi 5-year challenge, kehidupan 2020 (foto pagi ini, ditemenin ke kantor ambil berkas dan barang-barang hehe), 2019, 2018, 2017, 2016, sampai 2015.